Am I Alone?

Sometimes I talk to other moms, and I start to think I'm not the only one who's going crazy. Then they tack on this nice Christiany saying like, "But's God's grace," or "It sure is sanctifying, isn't it?" 

I give a fake chuckle, but I'm thinking, "That wasn't exactly the way I would put it."

They're so close to being like me, but then they sound so good. Are they actually that good? Do they know how to stay strong? Because I really do lose it. Sometimes I don't feel like God is being gracious. Sometimes sanctifying is more like hellifying. 

Maybe I have the worst kids; more likely I have the worst attitude. 

But sometimes I wonder, "Are they just saying that because they have to around other Christians? Are they actually losing it?"

Maybe I really am alone. Maybe I really am the only one who sometimes wishes I wasn't a mom. 

It sounds so bad to say outloud. I guess maybe they're all just preaching to themselves. They're trying to remind themselves that it really is worth it. 

But sometimes I just feel dead and done. Am I alone?