Things I Miss

I hate not being able to do things. I hate recovering.

I miss walks. I miss taking Taliya outside and walking everywhere.

I miss dance parties. Ugh. I sat down with Taliya on my lap and listened to "Popcorn." How does one just sit there during "Popcorn"? It was sad. Dance parties are my favorite, and I miss them. 

I miss the sun. This has nothing to do with my situatiion. I just miss it. 

Man! We were having dance parties a lot before the baby came. Tears fall. One day I'll dance again. 

Helpless

 

He lays there helpless in his tiny new body. There's nothing he can do for himself. I do everything for him...all day long. 

Sometimes it gets to me and I, too, feel helpless, but somehow I keep moving forward day after day. I love him and I love the little girl, but sometimes it feels like there's not enough of me to care for both of them. 

Sometimes I'm just saying I need help.