Thinking

I'm thinking about how thankful I am for them. The man and the baby. Joys and gifts I don't deserve. Sometimes I'm blown away with surprise and thanksgiving. Sure, they both have their moments of giving me trouble, but I love them both so much. 

Of What Used to Be

Why do I feel so tired, lonely?

Every time you leave me, my heart aches. 

My soul longs to be with you

Not just for a moment, but for a whole life long. 

I wish to live with you

Walk with you

Talk

Argue

Fight

Love

Worship

Be with you

My love for you grows.

I feel sorry, sad, hurt for my hurting you.

But my love for you bursts inside of me like a blossom in the morning sun.

Life hurts sometimes, Love!

You have been so kind, patient, gentle with me. 

You say you don’t want to be that guy, but you are far beyond that guy

You’re amazing

Far above my wildest dreams.

But, I sit here, tired, alone, mourning.

Oh, to be together. 

Oh, to be yours...forever.

Finally.

We are together.

Seeing Through Fog

Sometimes it seems the night tries to close in around me. 

Sometimes the depression attempts to come back.

Sometimes the loneliness sneaks in. 

But I see through fog. 

The lights still shine in the haze. 

The sun comes up every morning, even if the clouds try to cover it up. 

And, with my hand in Yours, I got nothin' to worry about. 

 

Aisle of Life

 

Takin' your hand and walkin' down the aisle of life is a joy. 

I suppose some days won't be pure bliss, but it'll be better with you. 

There will always be the people who don't like what we're doin', but I guess that don't matter too much. 

I'm glad I chose you. 

Dancing

 We might not know how to dance, 

but I sure am happy dancin' with you.

Free Bird

My life became so different so fast. I sometimes forget what I was living with. 

All caged up like that, I longed to be free. Suddenly, the light burst in, he announced us man and wife, and we raced, free, down the aisle. 

The joy I feel being with you is quite amazing. I feel like a bird released, finally, from her suffering cage. The light is bright, and though I know life isn't all blotches of sun and smudges of rainbows, I do believe it is better with you. 

Free bird flew coop finally. 

A Sonnet of Loving You

Out in the desert, you're too far away

I wish to see you every single day

But instead, my heart drops down many tears

As you drive a truck with ten diff'rent gears

So much pain and hurt comes from loving you

I could give up and not see this thing through

There are miles between that keep us apart

These long days are about to break my heart

And yet, I won't give up but keep on strong

Days will pass and the nights won't be too long

God will carry us through and I'll see you

We'll keep growing stronger, that's what we'll do

We'll happily go through stormy weather

Joy will burst when we're fin'lly together. 

Not So Long Ago

Not so long ago, I was longing to be free. I was stuck in that place, looking for the joys but burdened by sadness. 

I only hoped I could last, just barely make it somehow. Keep on going until the light finally burst forth.

But, oh how long the days felt! I felt so tired, so afraid. 

Time passes by quickly, but that wasn't so long ago. 

So much can change over night.

Best Big Brother

 

One of the best big brothers I know became the best husband I know.