Some Things are Hard

 Some things in life are just not great, but other things are really wonderful. 

It's hard to be so far from someone, yet it's really wonderful to finally see them after a while.

It's hard to be alone for so long, but it's so nice to be comforted again. 

It's hard to be forgotten, but it sure is cool when someone remembers.

It's hard to not know what to do, but it's great when things finally come together. 

It's hard to know what to say sometimes, but it's amazing how He speaks through your brokenness. 

It's hard to not be loved, but it's mind-blowing that He loves you no matter what. 

So, when those hard things pop up, I remember that the good will come again. 

Picture by Bethany. 

Happy Day

 Even if I feel alone

So far from home

Even if I wash my clothes by hand in a bathroom sink

Even if my decor is pictures I drew and taped to the wall

Even if I cook eggs and cabbage in a kitchen that's too small

I am blessed more than I can imagine, I think.

So, I can't complain

About this cold rain

Knowing there's warm tea

Waiting downstairs for me.

I'll get back up,

Drink the whole cup,

Thank You for this day,

And walk happily away.

Too Wonderful

 "There be three things which are 

too wonderful

for me,

yea, four, which I know not...

The way of a man with a maid."

~Proverbs 30:18-19

Yeah, I don't get it either, Agur. 

But I know what you mean now. 

One Person

 In the words of one person, 

"I guess I'm really crumby at showing my love."

Not sure how this picture relates, but somehow it seemed right.

Moments Pass

The weeks, months, years go by

sifting through your fingers

Like sand.

He knows the numbers, years

stories, tears, holds them in

His hand.

Worries, pains, wonders, thoughts

cover all your long days

Like mud

He sees and knows your cares

needs, wants, and lonely days

That flood.

We come and go

We watch and wonder

Fall drops the leaves

Time turns

Red, yellow, orange, purple

fall from the trees of life

Like jewels

Keep step with times that pass

winter, summer, fall, spring

He rules.

We come and go

We watch and wonder

Spring brings the buds

Love burns

Heart, feel, love, and embrace

        days as they come and go

He’s there

Life and breath and growing

come, go, stay, leave, and die

His care.

I Don't Know

And just like that, I don't have the answers to all your problems. 

I guess I try, but the more I know, the more I know how little I know. I used to think I knew how to deal with everything, but then everything came, and I had no clue how to deal with it. So, I sit there and just say, "I don't know."

But, there is one thing I know. God is good and He does loves me. Also, His Bible isn't there for nothin'.

"For I know that my Redeemer lives, and at the last he will stand upon the earth." ~Job 19:25

Photo by Dad

And Tomorrow WAS Better

Tomorrow is one of those weird concepts that don't make sense. It's like the future, when it comes it's no longer tomorrow; it's today. 

However, for the point of what I am thinking about, we can dismiss the problem for now. 

You see, when a bad day happens, I think, it will be better tomorrow. It is not a bad way of seeing things. Someone told me it was a bad attitude, like "the grass is greener on the other side." Once you get there, you realize it ain't. You were just discontent. 

But I don't think it's a bad way to look at it because even the Bible talks about "His mercies are new every morning," and "there is joy in the morning." So, I guess when those really bad days happen, I just think, tomorrow will be better.

Then tomorrow comes and it often is better. I see things fresh and new. It might still be hard, but sometimes it is much better. 

And, in my case, tomorrow was indeed better.

Heavy

 

Exhausted.

Tired, sore, weak, sick. Some times I feel unable to move about like a normal person. My body and soul tied down. 

Why is this so hard? Why does this heavy burden never seem to really lift? Why do my eyes slump down in fear and hopelessness? Why is it so dark?

"I lift my eyes to the hills. From where does my help come from? My help comes from the LORD, who made heaven and earth."

And You were there all along my dark tunnel. The space of light between each tunnel may be short, but Your grace and mercy goes with me through all the tunnels and all the breaks, too. 

"My help comes from the LORD."

Mud and Water

The mud on my pants? 

The dirt in my hair?

The scratch on my leg?

The joy in my heart?

It was a messy afternoon in the rushing creek after a dump-load of rain.

Mud and water: two of my favorite things.

Cage

 I fight blindly, but I can't seem to get out. The bars around this cage don't seem to want to give way.

So, I sit as a bird in your parlor, staring out the window, watching the birds who are free.

Thunder

 My heart thunders, 

And Your voice calms.

Average

Brown hair

Regular build

Big smile

Blue eyes

Average

Big plans

Regular dreams

Tough hands

Tan skin

Average

Black cap

Regular shirt

Blue jeans

Green dress

Average

Maybe a beard

Maybe a braid

Maybe a laugh

Maybe a talk

Average

Jokes

Stories

Words

Moments

Average

But my favorite 

My happiness

My memories

My love

Is all for the average

Gaining Heaven

 I am reminded that

No matter what I lose here on earth

I gain heaven.

If I don't get what I desire,

That doesn't mean I'm empty.

I just get more of Him.

Like a Butterfly

 

I am like a butterfly

Free and wild and young

I flitter here and flutter there

Full of life and pattern and color

But I will break a wing 

And die young.