When the Water is Clear

 Right now it looks sort of muddy. 

It's hard to see, it's hard to know, it's hard on me. 

And I can't know, and neither can they.

But sometimes I wish I knew what to do and knew the outcomes, too.

When the water is clear, I'll know more.

But the water might not be clear until the Son returns.

The Weight of Darkness

 

When the weight of darkness falls down on you, what will you do?

Where will you go?

Who will be your help?

Oh, it feels so tight, so hard, so dark. You feel so helpless, so small, so weak. But, He knows. 

He knows, and He's holding you.

You will again "walk before God in the light of life."*

Psalm 56:13

Blank Mind

 And yet it is swimming with thoughts and emotions. 

I can't feel anything, and yet I feel the weight of the world. 

I am helpless and weak, and yet He is the strength of my heart. 

I am hopeless and tired, and yet He is the Light of the world. 

Underneath are the everlasting arms. 

I Left Earth

 I left earth today and soared into the sky. 

I skimmed the clouds.

I held the controls in my own two hands.

I peered out the window of a great flying bird.

I felt free in the sky. 

I flew a plane today. 

Little Girl

 

Take my hand, little girl, and we'll go walk to the end of the road. 

We'll see what's there and sit and rest, then come back and smile and laugh.

How I've missed you.

Phones

 Phones are nice things.

You can be hundreds of miles away from someone, but if you give them a call, you can hear their voice and talk as if you were with them. Obviously, being with someone is always better, but phones help to bridge the distance. 

I used to hate talking on the phone because it scared me. I didn't know what to say or how to act, but I've learned that you just talk, and it's OK if there are silences. That actually happens to me a lot now. Silent moments. 

But, good friends know how to enjoy one another's company even in silence. 

You Fall

Sometimes you think life is going fine. You're happy where you are, what you're doing, who you're with; and then you suddenly feel like something is missing. 

You think you'll be fine being single forever. Maybe marriage even scares you out of your wits. Maybe you like being free and wild. Maybe you think that's who you are. 

But then you fall. 

You fall in love, and it's all over.

September

Welcome to September!

The hottest month of the year, 

and probably the driest, 

unless humidity counts. 

No Holes

You won't find a hole in my heart

'Cause it's not there.

You can look and try to find one,

But whatever's lost

is filled with His love.

The Blank Page Lady

Some times something just comes to your mind, and sometimes it don't.

I found out a while ago that I like to write. If someone gives me a blank piece of paper and a pen, you can be sure it won't stay blank forever. I might doodle, practice my hand-writing, write a story or a poem, or do whatever else I can do. I will probably have ink all over my hands by the end.

Sometimes I am just blank though. Sometimes I stare and stare, trying to figure out what to say or draw. Sometimes nothin' really comes. But, more often, somethin' does.

My head is full, so that blank page will soon be a mess. I suppose that's part of why I write, to get the mess out of the brain. It's better on paper. Some times even looks better.

I guess that's also why I bought a pack of 400 blank pieces of paper when everyone else was stocking up on toilet paper.